Archives: April 2006

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I’m sure in everyone’s life there is at least one moment when their growth is stunted. This growth that i’m talking about is not the physical, but rather the mental and spiritual one.

The more I think about it right now, the more it kind of feels that I needed to take a break this year…yet serving with Sycamore seemed like a calling. So was I called to rest and attempt focussing on work, or keep simmering along with both academics and God in both hands? Of course the latter! Yet, it doesn’t feel that way.

Why, after 3 years of hard work and acceptable averages, as well as a growing faith in the Salvation, have I lost it all this year? I have lost more than 10% of my average, and although I have firmed my belief in God, my fire is simply dying down once again. The dying of the fire is anything BUT post-TC syndrome.

Perhaps this struggle I face is actually from God. Perhaps I am meant to suffer several things this year, as I’ve already had. I no longer have to worry about our financial problems, as God provided once again, hallelujah…but now I have other problems to worry about.

I do notice that I am beginning to dislike more and more people in the church, seeing them as phonies, amongst other names. This, of course, is a violation of what we are taught by God- judge not lest ye be judged (i don’t actually KNOW the verse). Is my frustration and confusion at this point of life the work of Mr. Satan, or am I just not trying hard enough to reclaim the “covenant I’ve lost so easily”? Then again, salvation is not claimed by works, but by faith in Christ alone.

As my dad said, regarding problems and stress and other things troubling our minds and hearts:

Why do you stretch? You stretch because you want to relieve some stress right? When you stretch out, what form do you resemble? When your arms stretch outwards, you resemble the cross that Jesus died on…did you notice that? So how about you just stretch and lift your burdens to God?

Off to service I go again…I hope I truly haven’t turned into a lip-service Christian, but I probably already have been one for a while.

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I’ve been building up a long period of frustration, confusion and rebellious emotions to finally type out another entry.

I was eating again just now, and a thought came into my mind as my dad was playing with the dog.
“Perhaps the dog is a better investment of money than little humans…”

I will now do a small comparison between the pitiful human children (using myself as a base example) and dogs (using my medium-sized Sheltie [different sizes will vary]):

Pros of Dogs:

  • obedient
  • will rarely go against your orders
  • at most, spend $30 a month just for fresh bag of dog food [VARIABLE]
  • at most, grooming and washing three times every year, each at $35 [VARIABLE]
  • anything else good i haven’t listed

Cons of Dogs:

  • cannot simply go to the washroom to take a shit/leak
  • tapeworm threat
  • loud at times [VARIABLE]
  • cannot continue your lineage
  • cannot groom self
  • cannot brush own teeth
  • cannot wash self

Pros of human children:

  • Quicken the speed the planet will explode
  • Can be walking dictionaries, encyclopedias, other sources of information
  • Bring joy and ease to certain human lives
  • can debate the existence of God, despite how bad his arguement would be
  • Possibility of being a somebody, someday

Cons of human children:

  • Birth pains
  • Long-term, high caliber investment
  • Can wipe your bank accounts clean
  • Can be fickle
  • Can work hard for 3 years then fail the 4th and final year
  • Brings strife and suffering everywhere
  • Thinks too much
  • Too vocal; the best weapon is the voice/writing
  • Resource hogs
  • Like a leech, will deprive the hosts while gaining to self
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Well, by September, i will have my own domain name…and a new host.
Fong has decided to close up the site, since she needs to save the money and doesn’t have time to maintain it.
It’s all good, seriously.

I plan to join the $20/year plan with my friends at OrangeSimile.net (ie. Tim, Perry, Yam, Shirley)

Stay posted for domain changes and other happy things i guess.

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