blogONESo I haven’t really evaluated how bad my facial nerves/muscles were for a while. I can taste. I can blink a bit more than 95% of my left eye when I just close my eyes… Smiling doesn’t look as bad anymore, and the Folger’s commercial isn’t as horribly imitated anymore. Before, I could do the Folger’s coffee commercial with my right nostril alone and ONLY alone…the left one was incredi-crippled. Now, the left of my nose is still somewhat paralyzed, and I’m not quite sure how else to stimulate it other than by playing with nose. It’s quite fun sometimes, trying to fool myself that I stole my own nose and running around screaming.
Along with my first semester exams, my medication has also finished. So, my body is on 100% self-reliance now; no more anti-viral, no more anti-inflammatory pills… However, it doesn’t mean the stress I’ve felt before is gone now. Perhaps I have another ticking time bomb inside of me now, waiting for the next stressed deadline or tight schedule.
Chest pains are still regular and was pretty bad on Thursday or Friday, coming on and off for the entire day. If it doesn’t improve this week, I think I will really go get some medical attention on my day off.
Thoughts about the complex infrastructure do occur once in a while, and the whole uncertainty still eats at me. I am a simplex, after all. But if we really think about it, a partnership at this time is suicide on many parts – can we really play the juggling game? I don’t think so…so partnership talks will have to wait. All that can happen now is just…patience and having the right focus on things right now: studies first. When it’s time to play…then we’ll play. I wonder if it can really happen that way?
And, just for everyone’s knowledge…a few more MP3′s were posted.
(Note: If you are reading this via Facebook or an RSS feed, you’ve been owned and have to go to addonelam.net/mp3/ to get to the right link…)
