blogONE

Dear blogONE,

These past few weeks have been a continuation of my thoughts questioning my mental condition. The violent themes, mixed with compassion, redemption, salvation, grace, love, happiness and Jesus/God-figures constantly appear.

Work has been coming and going, and there is even some work I am neglecting in these dire times, I must admit. I have midterms starting next week, but there are two midterms I don’t know the times and dates for. This deeply troubles me.

Have you been eating well and wearing enough clothes, blogONE? I am always trying to remember to pray for you, that you’ll find your way back someday. Yes, I know it does sound funny and stupid…to believe. A lot of people here nowadays say and believe that God is dead, or has left us and is somewhere far away laughing at all of us…but when unexpected, bad things happen, they call out in His name or wonder where He is. Don’t you find that contradicting as well, blogONE? I hope you’re not like that, and that you’ll never be like that.

I haven’t heard much about you and your research with the complex infrastructure. I hope that is going well, blogONE. Uncertainties are always a part of life, blogONE…don’t forget that. And yes, you do have a moderately long life ahead of you…so why not take your actions at a gentle, relaxed pace? I mean, you are in no rush! Yes, I do know you’ve always told me you were moving at a relaxed pace, but since the last time we talked, it seemed as if you were getting too anxious. Just…calm down. We all remember last time when you got too excited over the complex infrastructure, haha! I can’t believe it’s almost been two months since that incident. Wow.

blogONE, keep working hard…I know you’ll make it one day. Chin up, always…even when it’s less painful to look down.

Love,
AddONE ♥ .